What an idiot I am- Plank Removal Services Requested
RMC #33- What an idiot I am- Plank Removal Services Requested
After the wonderful emails and comments I received from the “I was LOST” posting on July 23rd, I really was committed to doing more writing. But then reality intervened. I got real busy with work adding a lot of new business, my kids came for a visit and then I headed for Texas in convoy with Keaton and Sarah. Keaton’s 21st birthday was on August 15th, and I got to buy him his first legal drink. And then Sarah was starting her freshman year at Texas A&M and so I headed down to help her move in.
On the 15 hour drive from Colorado to Texas I had lots of time to think. I really wanted to do more writing. But the move, the cost of the move, the cost of the unanticipated items we needed to get for the house was all adding up, making me feel like I had to work harder to make ends meet.
All of these things were really contrary to having the time and the opportunity to write.
So sitting there dreaming about what could happen, I said something to God to the affect: “If I only had a little more business, I would have a little more money making it easier to find the time to write.”
Yep, that actually popped into my brain. And just about the time I was beginning to realize the idiocy of what I had just asked God for, I heard the following:
“Write, and I will take care of the rest.”
Instantly flooding back to me were all of the scriptural passages about “not worrying” about “letting tomorrow take care of itself” and on and on.
Well, to say the least God was removing a plank from my eye so I could see. I am so thankful he didn’t use the very same plank to hit me upside of the head knocking some sense into me at the same time.
I also realized that if I took care of my relationship with God, doing what he has asked me to do, namely write about my journey- with His help, then nothing else really mattered anyway, nothing could have been more important than to do His will and be on His team, doing what I could do. He will take what I write and use it for whatever he needs it to do. If it is only to show me, what I can do when in obedience to His requests, then that in and of itself is ample.
Thankfully God forgives even idiots like me. I think he looked into my heart and knew how much I wish to please Him and to make a difference. Maybe that’s why the answer came so fast. I didn’t have to wait long for the response to this misguided request. I think my next prayers will be of the nature that I will have to wait patiently for a response.
No more plank removal for me. At least for a while.
